My heart is aching with so much pain if you’ll just know how I feel in this very terrible place I am now. I live in a dungeon-like fearsome discreet-peaceful world, estrange and scary.
Months ago when I went here in a very unplanned and undecided mind, hoping that I could find a place that I’ll treat heaven as I grow. Happy are the days of my humble beginnings in here, full of learning, experience, gladness and growing-up, but I never thought that a fearful hell-like environment is with me all along.
So God-Fearing, so environment friendly, so pro-people… Good in communicating and relations with people who aren’t in this messy world of evil and pain. This is how pretentious this monster is. So delicate when you saw it, so angelic when you hear it, so religious when it acts. Fine movements of wonderful creature, smooth conversation of a great preacher, soft voice than that of a soft played baby guitar, and an innocent face like that of a baby.
One day, when an unlucky agent was suspiciously accused, deprived of his right to talk and defend his life, ousted and kicked-off in this very dreadful room. So much tears fall, so much accusations fall either, and so many unpleasant words went out. Opinions of devil-like sinners flow and flooded the room with none of us either of the prisoners were able to support the accused roommate.
(to be continued)
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
50 pesos
i still went to the office 10mins late.. hehehe.. it's somehow part of my daily routine.. while im driving a bike, im singing something, actually i don't remember the song i sang, but it entertained me a lot... i traversed my daily route and arrived at the office safe and sound.. my co-staff and my boss were busy doing their own things..
again, i went to my crib and started filing and filing and filing..
my boss had a meeting with our clients and it only lasted an hour.. awesome! they were able to tackle a lot of topics.. they started 10:15 and ended up 11:20.. during their meeting (they just had their conversion casual and had it near my table and their conversation is very obnoxious.. i cannot concentrate, so, all did that time was plurking and plurking and plurking..
its almost 15mins before lunch and , i felt something in my tummy.. nyahehehe.. im totally hungry! it's complaining! what's worse is that i was hastily waiting for 12noon to come but its delaying more.. and waht's even worst is that, when i 12noon stroked, my personal client arrived, and i have no choice but to entertain her... it wasnt that important as i thought when i saw her approaching, our transaction just consumed 15minutes, 12:18 when i went out of the office to consume my 1-hour lunch break..
i only have 100pesos in my precious wallet when i opened the u-box and it made me smiled... im suffering now from what we call poverty.. bwahhahaha... so what i did? to save my remaining amount? i will go home and had my lunch there.. luckily my momma prepared something for us, so i was not able to spend a single centavo for my lunch.. after 30mins and 10mins rest after eating, i prepared to go back in the office.. while i was driving the bike, i noticed that the gasoline is near the red tag... huhuhuhu... im running out of gas.. OMG, i only have 100p and i wasn't able to ask an amount from my momma..
in the office? well, nothing's changed everythings doing great.. ( i guess)
it was 6:10 when i logged-out and somebody texted me for an eyeball.. well, im just being humane, so i met him.. (yes, he is a boy) and so i hada a little conversation with him, good thing that i have found a new friend from him (maybe, i still can't conclude, it's just our first met) but anyway, he still continued texting till now..
after 10 or 15mins maybe of a short chat, we bid farewell and i went home.. and again, i saw the red light from my bike... whew! i really need for a gas-up.. so i went to my favorite gasoline station and had a gas-up for only 50p.. and when i saw the volume of the gas.. it never reached the volume i usually consume evertime i avail a 50-peso gasoline... it surprised me more when i noticed that from 40.03 it went up to 42.something my God!
what's left for me is 50p... what will i be able to buy with 50 within 4days? whew!
no worries.. (i just hope so) my momma is a rescuer! hehehe..
again, i went to my crib and started filing and filing and filing..
my boss had a meeting with our clients and it only lasted an hour.. awesome! they were able to tackle a lot of topics.. they started 10:15 and ended up 11:20.. during their meeting (they just had their conversion casual and had it near my table and their conversation is very obnoxious.. i cannot concentrate, so, all did that time was plurking and plurking and plurking..
its almost 15mins before lunch and , i felt something in my tummy.. nyahehehe.. im totally hungry! it's complaining! what's worse is that i was hastily waiting for 12noon to come but its delaying more.. and waht's even worst is that, when i 12noon stroked, my personal client arrived, and i have no choice but to entertain her... it wasnt that important as i thought when i saw her approaching, our transaction just consumed 15minutes, 12:18 when i went out of the office to consume my 1-hour lunch break..
i only have 100pesos in my precious wallet when i opened the u-box and it made me smiled... im suffering now from what we call poverty.. bwahhahaha... so what i did? to save my remaining amount? i will go home and had my lunch there.. luckily my momma prepared something for us, so i was not able to spend a single centavo for my lunch.. after 30mins and 10mins rest after eating, i prepared to go back in the office.. while i was driving the bike, i noticed that the gasoline is near the red tag... huhuhuhu... im running out of gas.. OMG, i only have 100p and i wasn't able to ask an amount from my momma..
in the office? well, nothing's changed everythings doing great.. ( i guess)
it was 6:10 when i logged-out and somebody texted me for an eyeball.. well, im just being humane, so i met him.. (yes, he is a boy) and so i hada a little conversation with him, good thing that i have found a new friend from him (maybe, i still can't conclude, it's just our first met) but anyway, he still continued texting till now..
after 10 or 15mins maybe of a short chat, we bid farewell and i went home.. and again, i saw the red light from my bike... whew! i really need for a gas-up.. so i went to my favorite gasoline station and had a gas-up for only 50p.. and when i saw the volume of the gas.. it never reached the volume i usually consume evertime i avail a 50-peso gasoline... it surprised me more when i noticed that from 40.03 it went up to 42.something my God!
what's left for me is 50p... what will i be able to buy with 50 within 4days? whew!
no worries.. (i just hope so) my momma is a rescuer! hehehe..
Monday, May 25, 2009
FaiLed
=( it's monday evening and unfortunately i wasn't able to serve my verbal resignation..
It's monday morning, past 7am, i and my sister woke up late.. reason? Regine Velasquez' documentary.. the show started past 11 pm last night and i thought it's just a 1-hour show.. but anyways, i was amazed with her small beginnings... such a success!
!:35am when the show ended up and my eyes were totally tired.. my brain was aching and my body seemed to be numb.. weird.. but still i wanted to see the acknowledgment scroll.. (i don't know why).. when i turned off the television, i went directly to my bed and hugged my one and only pillow.. had the mosquito net on my feet and hmmm.. its makes me feel totally comfortable.. and i slept...
5:00am, my phone alarmed... i was in the middle my weird dream, so i opened my right eye and reset the alarm at 6am...
6:00am, still my brain cracks! so i set it again at 7am until it finally ranged at 7:20am.. and when i woke up, i only have an hour and 40minutes in preparing for office and my sister is still snoring.. whew! no foods prepared, no clothes prepared... nothing!
i went directly to the CR and had my sat on the king's throne... and afterwards, had a nice comfy bath.. ( i almost, made it within 10mins) hahaha.. then searched for something to wear, i choose a blue semi-polo and had my black blazer, my casual slacks-pants and my white leather shoes.. i just stirred a cup of hot chocolate and sipped a bit.. then, took my bag, my blue helmet and started my motor bike... my sister was still asleep that time..
after 7mins i arrived in the office.. my log-in time was 9:10am.. i sat directly to my chair and started my daily routine.. that time was the most harmonious environment.. everything was so easy and quiet, all inquiries were answered, all problems were solved.. everything is just fine! fine! fine! we had nice conversation, tackling issues that were not the usual office issues...
I just can't imagine if how will i open my resignation, how will i start, will i opt to make it private or should i let my co-staff hear everything? i don't know.. my next best choice would be friday, at least before the end of the month, i need 10days to stay in the office and clear up my files.. but the main problem is, i have no idea if how will i open it.. this is another case of "come what may"..
My boss asked me if what's good with the office? some other rulings? meaning, she's giving my presence an importance.. i will definitely miss that thing..
i treated my boss as my second mother, she thought me a lot! she even is my mentor and i will not forget when she cared for when i told her i had flu, that she even would've let one of our office staff to lend medicine t home.. she, gave me her idealistic success and shared her humble beginnings! but somehow, i should accept the fact that "no book is endless..." and lately when im trapped in silence in the office, where all you could only hear are the tickling sounds of the keyboard, i will certainly miss my crib.. my files.. my books.. my computer.. my chair.. everything! i hate endings when i see a movie but somehow it's just a sign for a new movie to start with..
it was lunchtime, and went out for a lunch break at12:30.. i drove my way home and checked my sister if she has something to eat, and even check if whether momma arrived.. i saw sack of rice on the doorstep and yeah! momma is here! i greeted her a happy birthday and has a little chat... we ate lunch together prepared my little sister and afterwards, i traversed my way back to the office..
i never thought that i will be late for 15mins when i went back.. i greeted my boss with a smile and sat directly to my table.. encoded my monthly report and etc...
im totally decided! i will sacrifice my job.. may 29 would be the perfect time! it's my choice, it's my decision and it's my risk! =(
It's monday morning, past 7am, i and my sister woke up late.. reason? Regine Velasquez' documentary.. the show started past 11 pm last night and i thought it's just a 1-hour show.. but anyways, i was amazed with her small beginnings... such a success!
!:35am when the show ended up and my eyes were totally tired.. my brain was aching and my body seemed to be numb.. weird.. but still i wanted to see the acknowledgment scroll.. (i don't know why).. when i turned off the television, i went directly to my bed and hugged my one and only pillow.. had the mosquito net on my feet and hmmm.. its makes me feel totally comfortable.. and i slept...
5:00am, my phone alarmed... i was in the middle my weird dream, so i opened my right eye and reset the alarm at 6am...
6:00am, still my brain cracks! so i set it again at 7am until it finally ranged at 7:20am.. and when i woke up, i only have an hour and 40minutes in preparing for office and my sister is still snoring.. whew! no foods prepared, no clothes prepared... nothing!
i went directly to the CR and had my sat on the king's throne... and afterwards, had a nice comfy bath.. ( i almost, made it within 10mins) hahaha.. then searched for something to wear, i choose a blue semi-polo and had my black blazer, my casual slacks-pants and my white leather shoes.. i just stirred a cup of hot chocolate and sipped a bit.. then, took my bag, my blue helmet and started my motor bike... my sister was still asleep that time..
after 7mins i arrived in the office.. my log-in time was 9:10am.. i sat directly to my chair and started my daily routine.. that time was the most harmonious environment.. everything was so easy and quiet, all inquiries were answered, all problems were solved.. everything is just fine! fine! fine! we had nice conversation, tackling issues that were not the usual office issues...
I just can't imagine if how will i open my resignation, how will i start, will i opt to make it private or should i let my co-staff hear everything? i don't know.. my next best choice would be friday, at least before the end of the month, i need 10days to stay in the office and clear up my files.. but the main problem is, i have no idea if how will i open it.. this is another case of "come what may"..
My boss asked me if what's good with the office? some other rulings? meaning, she's giving my presence an importance.. i will definitely miss that thing..
i treated my boss as my second mother, she thought me a lot! she even is my mentor and i will not forget when she cared for when i told her i had flu, that she even would've let one of our office staff to lend medicine t home.. she, gave me her idealistic success and shared her humble beginnings! but somehow, i should accept the fact that "no book is endless..." and lately when im trapped in silence in the office, where all you could only hear are the tickling sounds of the keyboard, i will certainly miss my crib.. my files.. my books.. my computer.. my chair.. everything! i hate endings when i see a movie but somehow it's just a sign for a new movie to start with..
it was lunchtime, and went out for a lunch break at12:30.. i drove my way home and checked my sister if she has something to eat, and even check if whether momma arrived.. i saw sack of rice on the doorstep and yeah! momma is here! i greeted her a happy birthday and has a little chat... we ate lunch together prepared my little sister and afterwards, i traversed my way back to the office..
i never thought that i will be late for 15mins when i went back.. i greeted my boss with a smile and sat directly to my table.. encoded my monthly report and etc...
im totally decided! i will sacrifice my job.. may 29 would be the perfect time! it's my choice, it's my decision and it's my risk! =(
Saturday, May 23, 2009
PreParing for The VerdicT
whew!, only 18hours left and i have to decide will it be may 25 or may 28.. i need to open up my resignation in the office and i don't know if when would that be.. im scared it will not went on what i am expecting but the worst thing that will happen is greatly expected...
reason? my momma asked me to sacrifice my job and went to her place, somewhere in Davao and help her.. my grandma is sick and she needs comfort, she has quality living, not slum not rich either.. but what i know is that she can provide to hire a personal nurse, a personal doctor or a personal caregiver.. Lola went to a mild stroke but she surpassed it, after effect? alzheimers, althoguh mild, she could still remember that she has kids and she knows my momma..
way back, august last year, i remember when she celebrated her 85th birthday.. a simple gathering was set and unfortunately i wasnt there because im stucked as an office-staff.. my sister told me the whole story.. she and some of our cousins prepared something for the program and even the foods and the venue was prepared by the whole clan.. no services from other people were hired..
It was the main event.. because lola is a devotee of our Lady Of Lourdes, she opted to wear her devotion gown.. a white straight dress and a blue belt on it.. but she's seating on a wheel chair.. my momma is the one who hold the wheel chair.. my lola cannot utter clear words anymore and only my momma could understand her.. my sister gave lola a flower and so my gift which was sent through her (my sister).. it was a rosary made of real pearls and silver.. tears of joy flooded the place.. the event happened lunch time and suddenly their silence was broken by a heavy laugh when my sister and my nephew went near to lola.. my nephew asked lola "why are u siting on that car?" it was the wheel chair he is trying to point at.. and lola just smiled, and what's worse? my nephew inquired again "why are u laughing?" 'can i borrow ur wheels?" even i, when my sister is telling me the whole story cannot prevent myself from laughing.. another is that, when my sister is giving my lola a bunch of flowers picked from the garden of my lola's house... tears went out from my lola's eyes and uttered.. "it's my debut" which made everyone laugh and laugh and laugh.. because lola thought it was her debut, they played waltz and my momma took my lola and carried it and danced her.. i really felt how momma loves her mother...
anyway, the story seemed to be far from my topic...
let's go back to the verdict...
reason? my momma asked me to sacrifice my job and went to her place, somewhere in Davao and help her.. my grandma is sick and she needs comfort, she has quality living, not slum not rich either.. but what i know is that she can provide to hire a personal nurse, a personal doctor or a personal caregiver.. Lola went to a mild stroke but she surpassed it, after effect? alzheimers, althoguh mild, she could still remember that she has kids and she knows my momma..
way back, august last year, i remember when she celebrated her 85th birthday.. a simple gathering was set and unfortunately i wasnt there because im stucked as an office-staff.. my sister told me the whole story.. she and some of our cousins prepared something for the program and even the foods and the venue was prepared by the whole clan.. no services from other people were hired..
It was the main event.. because lola is a devotee of our Lady Of Lourdes, she opted to wear her devotion gown.. a white straight dress and a blue belt on it.. but she's seating on a wheel chair.. my momma is the one who hold the wheel chair.. my lola cannot utter clear words anymore and only my momma could understand her.. my sister gave lola a flower and so my gift which was sent through her (my sister).. it was a rosary made of real pearls and silver.. tears of joy flooded the place.. the event happened lunch time and suddenly their silence was broken by a heavy laugh when my sister and my nephew went near to lola.. my nephew asked lola "why are u siting on that car?" it was the wheel chair he is trying to point at.. and lola just smiled, and what's worse? my nephew inquired again "why are u laughing?" 'can i borrow ur wheels?" even i, when my sister is telling me the whole story cannot prevent myself from laughing.. another is that, when my sister is giving my lola a bunch of flowers picked from the garden of my lola's house... tears went out from my lola's eyes and uttered.. "it's my debut" which made everyone laugh and laugh and laugh.. because lola thought it was her debut, they played waltz and my momma took my lola and carried it and danced her.. i really felt how momma loves her mother...
anyway, the story seemed to be far from my topic...
let's go back to the verdict...
ThaT SundAy Eve
it was almost 9pm when i went to my new friends house.. i just dropped my sister and my nephew in our house and went directly to his place..
i texted him that im on my way now and so he did was updating if in what particular area i am as of every passing moment.. when im near his place (as he said) he will wait for me outside his house.. and finally after almost 15mins, we finally meet.. he lives in a cute and very neat happy-home (although he is alone).. he has a mini-gate before entering into his house' main door which is on the left side, a sofa set will receive u for a lazy seat and a television set will entertain you once you're in... two mini sofa set table was placed on besidea the televsion set and it has a lot of pictures on it, (photo framed or course).. and on the other side was a computer set..
when he saw me, he just gave me a smile (but you'll notice his weak eyes, which means he doesn't really feel good..) all those time, we were geting-to-know each other.. he was 32, 5'8, medium built, has a nice sense of hair fashion, whiter complexion, a professional, bachelor, and a good person.. he lives alone and his folks were miles away from him, i asked some other personal questions but i decided to keep it all by myself.. none of those things are bloggable and i still have full respect on him...
when our conversation went farther, we found out that one person is connected to us he is a friend of mine and a sub-ordinate of him.. weird small world... secrets were revealed and personal issues smoked-out..
after 2hours of beautiful conversation, i told him that i need to go.. it's past eleven and im worried about my sister and my nephew.. so he bid farewell and so do i.. i went outside and traversed my way back home..
i texted him that im on my way now and so he did was updating if in what particular area i am as of every passing moment.. when im near his place (as he said) he will wait for me outside his house.. and finally after almost 15mins, we finally meet.. he lives in a cute and very neat happy-home (although he is alone).. he has a mini-gate before entering into his house' main door which is on the left side, a sofa set will receive u for a lazy seat and a television set will entertain you once you're in... two mini sofa set table was placed on besidea the televsion set and it has a lot of pictures on it, (photo framed or course).. and on the other side was a computer set..
when he saw me, he just gave me a smile (but you'll notice his weak eyes, which means he doesn't really feel good..) all those time, we were geting-to-know each other.. he was 32, 5'8, medium built, has a nice sense of hair fashion, whiter complexion, a professional, bachelor, and a good person.. he lives alone and his folks were miles away from him, i asked some other personal questions but i decided to keep it all by myself.. none of those things are bloggable and i still have full respect on him...
when our conversation went farther, we found out that one person is connected to us he is a friend of mine and a sub-ordinate of him.. weird small world... secrets were revealed and personal issues smoked-out..
after 2hours of beautiful conversation, i told him that i need to go.. it's past eleven and im worried about my sister and my nephew.. so he bid farewell and so do i.. i went outside and traversed my way back home..
Monday, May 11, 2009
sunday.. busy day! whew!
Sunday still, may 10, 2009.. after dropping by at my friend's cafe.. i went straight home.. we were about to go to the memorial place and visit my dadda's grave, offer some prayers and greet him a happy birthday (weird, happy and he's dead), but the weather isn't with us.. i asked my sister if they will still come with me and visit dadda's grave, but the loud thunder made them decide not to with me, they'll just stay home as she said.. so, i prepared; wore my gray-slim-tee with hood and my black and white checkered skinny pants with my white pointed shoes with crocodile brooch on it (nyehehehe.. guess what it's brand is)..
The sky was heavy and the thunder is getting louder, but still i continued with my plans.. while i was in the vehicle, someone texted me.. he is a friend whom i known hours ago from my YM account, when we had a conversation earlier, i promised him that i will visit his place (just to know a new face, explore new kind of people, learn something new from them), i replied on him my confirmation about visiting him and that will be on 8pm that night..
It was exactly 6pm when i arrived in the memorial place, and i was so surprised that i couldn't even see my dadda's grave.. two trees sprouted from the place and when i lighted my candles as my offering to the dead, my hands were shaking because of the heatlhy leaves and branches... i was thinking that maybe snakes will surprisingly jump upon me, bite me and his venom will spread through my body and ill be numb, and what's worse nobody is in that place, i was just alone.. and later on people will find out that there's a corpse in that place bitten by a snake.. but that didn't happened anyway.. hehehe.. 'twas just my mere imagination..
After 45mins, i went out of the graveyard and bid my dadda a farewell.. i went straight to the church and luckily 5mins when i arrived, the mass ended, meaning i could sit whenever i wanted since the next mass schedule is about to start.. my sister texted me that she and our nephew is on their way to the church, they changed their mind.. maybe they were bored being confined in the four corners of our little homey.. so i, reserved seats for them.. about 20mins lapsed when they arrived and the mass started 5mins after their arrival.. my nephew from afar saw me first and shouted "adto man si tito" (there he is).. i was giggling with my nephew as if we havent met years ago.. hehehe.. until the mass bell rang.. the mass was about to start.. the priest and all the cast of the celebration passed by like a procession.. the choir sang a heavenly chantal song andthe people were singing too.. My nephew was playing, playing, playin until he met a new playmate.. we just let him played.. anyway, what's the sense of him going to the church if he cannot even read "cahpter, verses, crucifiction.... etc...."
after the mass, our next stop was the grocery, we bought stuff like instant foods, toiletries and some snacks... i was trying to bought ice cream but i forgot to bring my extra-money, so i left it, anyway, we had just ice cream two days ago.. hehehe..
while we were planning to go home, i forgot we have no food in our house for dinner.. so i bought some for take-out and just consume it at home... and still i almost forgot that i have to visit a friend...
The sky was heavy and the thunder is getting louder, but still i continued with my plans.. while i was in the vehicle, someone texted me.. he is a friend whom i known hours ago from my YM account, when we had a conversation earlier, i promised him that i will visit his place (just to know a new face, explore new kind of people, learn something new from them), i replied on him my confirmation about visiting him and that will be on 8pm that night..
It was exactly 6pm when i arrived in the memorial place, and i was so surprised that i couldn't even see my dadda's grave.. two trees sprouted from the place and when i lighted my candles as my offering to the dead, my hands were shaking because of the heatlhy leaves and branches... i was thinking that maybe snakes will surprisingly jump upon me, bite me and his venom will spread through my body and ill be numb, and what's worse nobody is in that place, i was just alone.. and later on people will find out that there's a corpse in that place bitten by a snake.. but that didn't happened anyway.. hehehe.. 'twas just my mere imagination..
After 45mins, i went out of the graveyard and bid my dadda a farewell.. i went straight to the church and luckily 5mins when i arrived, the mass ended, meaning i could sit whenever i wanted since the next mass schedule is about to start.. my sister texted me that she and our nephew is on their way to the church, they changed their mind.. maybe they were bored being confined in the four corners of our little homey.. so i, reserved seats for them.. about 20mins lapsed when they arrived and the mass started 5mins after their arrival.. my nephew from afar saw me first and shouted "adto man si tito" (there he is).. i was giggling with my nephew as if we havent met years ago.. hehehe.. until the mass bell rang.. the mass was about to start.. the priest and all the cast of the celebration passed by like a procession.. the choir sang a heavenly chantal song andthe people were singing too.. My nephew was playing, playing, playin until he met a new playmate.. we just let him played.. anyway, what's the sense of him going to the church if he cannot even read "cahpter, verses, crucifiction.... etc...."
after the mass, our next stop was the grocery, we bought stuff like instant foods, toiletries and some snacks... i was trying to bought ice cream but i forgot to bring my extra-money, so i left it, anyway, we had just ice cream two days ago.. hehehe..
while we were planning to go home, i forgot we have no food in our house for dinner.. so i bought some for take-out and just consume it at home... and still i almost forgot that i have to visit a friend...
Sunday, May 10, 2009
happy mother's day
Sunday, 3 weeks since our mom went to Davao to visit our sick granny, and i was awaken by the loud nag of my youngest sister to our 4-year old nephew.. They were wrestling all the while and i was totally disturbed (whenever our mom left us, i usually sleep with those 2 kids).. It was 10 am when i got up of bed (actually, it's almost an hour between i i opened my sweet little eyes and stood up of the heavenly bed hehehe...) what took me another 5 minutes before going out of the room was my old model cellphone and a new weird slide-up hi-tech low class dual-phone because all night long they were hiding under my soft huggable pillow (take note: PILLOW, im only using 1 pillow when i sleep).. when i saw the kids, as they wrestle, they seem to have no problems at all, i just smiled at them when they greeted me with a smiling glance that u could identify their joy from those facial expressions.. i took the pan and prepared hotdogs for breakfast, my sister went out and bought halo-halo.. i prepared the food on our living room in front of the television while we watch a sunday-magazine show.. they tackled issues about motherhood, etc. etc.. so my little sister tried to contact our mom and while we were eating, we had a conversation with her, our nephew even talked to our mom (his lola) and they were laughing and giggling as if they were with each other physically.. (i can see how these two kids misses my mom, my sister even had teary eyes and shakey voice when she talks to her)... when the call ends, we were embraced with total silence and what you'll only hear is the sound of the television at its lowest volume...
we finished eating after an hour and a party-television show began with a tribute to Manny Pacquiao (oh, he seems to be my idol.. i can earn from his winnings.. LOL) and so the program goes on with variety shows.. dancing, singing, talks, talks, and unending thank yous.. until a segment about celebrating MOTHER'S DAY showed-up.. four artists were singing songs about something that will remind you of your dearest mom.. as the lyrics of the songs were shown on the television while the artists sings it, it was the very first time when i internalized every lines and every words.. my eyes were heavy with pounds and pounds of tears and my heart was shaking that it needs a warm hug from my lovely sweet momma.. (oh how i miss her...) when she called again, she eased the pain of our longings for her.. she extended her message through sms after the call "mga anak ko, i love u" (my kids, i love u) it was my first to receive that kind of message from her.. that's why i wasn't able to control when those waters from my eyes ran down..
she had molded to us to become what we are now, she's a widow for 14 years and we are proud that she didn't even tried to look for another partner instead she accepted the role of becoming our father and our mother.. she have given us all the favors we need and all the things we wanted.. we were never deprived from total happiness and she's our light from the darkest place... she's the reason why i choose to live as she always says we are the reason's why she want to live longer on earth..
Our MoMMa seldom says "I love u" to us.. but we know how much she cares for us.. no measurement system needed, not even the biggest scale on earth can measure that love and care..
for my MOMMA, I LOVE YOU! HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY (and to our dadda, actually it's his birthday today.. hehehe.. wherever you are! happy birthday.. we love u...)
we finished eating after an hour and a party-television show began with a tribute to Manny Pacquiao (oh, he seems to be my idol.. i can earn from his winnings.. LOL) and so the program goes on with variety shows.. dancing, singing, talks, talks, and unending thank yous.. until a segment about celebrating MOTHER'S DAY showed-up.. four artists were singing songs about something that will remind you of your dearest mom.. as the lyrics of the songs were shown on the television while the artists sings it, it was the very first time when i internalized every lines and every words.. my eyes were heavy with pounds and pounds of tears and my heart was shaking that it needs a warm hug from my lovely sweet momma.. (oh how i miss her...) when she called again, she eased the pain of our longings for her.. she extended her message through sms after the call "mga anak ko, i love u" (my kids, i love u) it was my first to receive that kind of message from her.. that's why i wasn't able to control when those waters from my eyes ran down..
she had molded to us to become what we are now, she's a widow for 14 years and we are proud that she didn't even tried to look for another partner instead she accepted the role of becoming our father and our mother.. she have given us all the favors we need and all the things we wanted.. we were never deprived from total happiness and she's our light from the darkest place... she's the reason why i choose to live as she always says we are the reason's why she want to live longer on earth..
Our MoMMa seldom says "I love u" to us.. but we know how much she cares for us.. no measurement system needed, not even the biggest scale on earth can measure that love and care..
for my MOMMA, I LOVE YOU! HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY (and to our dadda, actually it's his birthday today.. hehehe.. wherever you are! happy birthday.. we love u...)
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