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=( it's monday evening and unfortunately i wasn't able to serve my verbal resignation..

It's monday morning, past 7am, i and my sister woke up late.. reason? Regine Velasquez' documentary.. the show started past 11 pm last night and i thought it's just a 1-hour show.. but anyways, i was amazed with her small beginnings... such a success!

!:35am when the show ended up and my eyes were totally tired.. my brain was aching and my body seemed to be numb.. weird.. but still i wanted to see the acknowledgment scroll.. (i don't know why).. when i turned off the television, i went directly to my bed and hugged my one and only pillow.. had the mosquito net on my feet and hmmm.. its makes me feel totally comfortable.. and i slept...

5:00am, my phone alarmed... i was in the middle my weird dream, so i opened my right eye and reset the alarm at 6am...

6:00am, still my brain cracks! so i set it again at 7am until it finally ranged at 7:20am.. and when i woke up, i only have an hour and 40minutes in preparing for office and my sister is still snoring.. whew! no foods prepared, no clothes prepared... nothing!

i went directly to the CR and had my sat on the king's throne... and afterwards, had a nice comfy bath.. ( i almost, made it within 10mins) hahaha.. then searched for something to wear, i choose a blue semi-polo and had my black blazer, my casual slacks-pants and my white leather shoes.. i just stirred a cup of hot chocolate and sipped a bit.. then, took my bag, my blue helmet and started my motor bike... my sister was still asleep that time..

after 7mins i arrived in the office.. my log-in time was 9:10am.. i sat directly to my chair and started my daily routine.. that time was the most harmonious environment.. everything was so easy and quiet, all inquiries were answered, all problems were solved.. everything is just fine! fine! fine! we had nice conversation, tackling issues that were not the usual office issues...

I just can't imagine if how will i open my resignation, how will i start, will i opt to make it private or should i let my co-staff hear everything? i don't know.. my next best choice would be friday, at least before the end of the month, i need 10days to stay in the office and clear up my files.. but the main problem is, i have no idea if how will i open it.. this is another case of "come what may"..

My boss asked me if what's good with the office? some other rulings? meaning, she's giving my presence an importance.. i will definitely miss that thing..

i treated my boss as my second mother, she thought me a lot! she even is my mentor and i will not forget when she cared for when i told her i had flu, that she even would've let one of our office staff to lend medicine t home.. she, gave me her idealistic success and shared her humble beginnings! but somehow, i should accept the fact that "no book is endless..." and lately when im trapped in silence in the office, where all you could only hear are the tickling sounds of the keyboard, i will certainly miss my crib.. my files.. my books.. my computer.. my chair.. everything! i hate endings when i see a movie but somehow it's just a sign for a new movie to start with..

it was lunchtime, and went out for a lunch break at12:30.. i drove my way home and checked my sister if she has something to eat, and even check if whether momma arrived.. i saw sack of rice on the doorstep and yeah! momma is here! i greeted her a happy birthday and has a little chat... we ate lunch together prepared my little sister and afterwards, i traversed my way back to the office..

i never thought that i will be late for 15mins when i went back.. i greeted my boss with a smile and sat directly to my table.. encoded my monthly report and etc...

im totally decided! i will sacrifice my job.. may 29 would be the perfect time! it's my choice, it's my decision and it's my risk! =(